a moment of inspiration

My wife is currently recovering from Hepatitis....

She was diagnosed with it last month, during my previous trip to South Kalimantan (not during the recent trip to East Kalimantan I just mentioned). I wanted to get back but I was in the middle of nowhere. No airports nearby and the flights are not that many anyway. The experience of not able to do anything for someone whom I love so much right then devastated me psychologically.

It just made me think, if I, this weak soul, can love another this much, how much does our Father in Heaven love us?

If I was devastated for not being able to do anything for someone I love, how much did Mother Mary suffer when she could not do anything but pray when she saw Jesus being tried, scourged, and crucified?

I was reminded of a text from one song: "If you really love her, you gotta set her free".

In this context, it applies.... true love is when we can set someone free from our worries and entrust them in God's love. When I am being hard headed in worrying about them, I am actually saying that I am not willing to entrust them in God's love, I am entrusting them in MY LOVE that is limited....

When I prevent another to get better things than I can offer just because it makes me feel good and responsible... it is actually egoistical isn't it?